Beginning Anew Ch 6

CHAPTER SIX
    
    Jacob felt like he was free falling. “Hey,” he said softly, kissing her finger tips. “It’s okay if you’re not ready.”
    She shook her head frantically. “It’s not that. I … I want to marry you, Jacob.” Allie whispered. “I just got overwhelmed, and I was thinking about yesterday and how you were in such a terrible mood, and .. I just … are you sure you want to marry me?”
    His jaw dropped. “Are you kidding?” he scoffed. “I can’t believe you’re even thinking that! Allie, the reason I was in a bad mood yesterday was because the jeweler screwed up, and the ring wont be ready until next week. I’d planned everything out and just wanted the night to be perfect. I certainly wasn’t regretting my decision to propose to you! I wouldn’t ask you to marry me if I wasn’t absolutely positive that I wanted to be with you for the rest of our lives.” He stood up, taking a few steps away from her, his back toward her. “I’m very upset that you’d even think something like that,”
    She rushed to him, putting her arms around him. “I’m sorry, Jake.” she whispered. In her mind, she chided herself. How could she be so stupid? Of course Jake loved her, he did everything for her. She just couldn’t help but think sometimes that one day he’d meet someone and all of a sudden realize that he was wasting his time with Allie. She shook the thought from her mind. “Please don’t be mad. I want to marry you!”
    “Are you saying yes?”
    Nodding shyly, she looked up at him and smiled. “I’m saying yes,”
    He looked at her, and bent to kiss her. “Even though I cant give you a ring until next week?” he asked, grinning.
    “I don’t care if I never get a ring, I just want to be your wife.” she whispered.
    Their fingers intertwined as they started walking toward home. They walked in silence for some time, enjoying the night air and the electric feeling between them.
    “You know I’m going to spank you for even thinking what you did,” he told her as they came to the front of their apartment building.
    Allie’s tummy filled with butterflies. “But I said I was sorry! I didn’t mean it like that, I just .. I don’t know! I’m sorry,”
    “By the time I’m done with you tonight, you will never EVER say or think anything like that again. Do you understand?” he asked, turning to her.
    She nodded. “Yes sir,” she murmured.
    “Okay, lets go on up.” he led the way and she followed silently. When they got into the apartment, he took a seat on the couch, and pulled Allie over his lap. He started spanking her firmly with his hand, over her thin black dress. While he smacked, he lectured. “I love you Allison, you are the most important person in the world to me. Nothing else even compares to you, don’t you understand that? I am tired of you doubting yourself, and apparently doubting my love for you. It’s just unacceptable, and I won’t stand for it.”

    “Ouch! Oooh,” she wiggled, trying to avoid his hand. “I’m sorry Jake! I really am,”
    He tugged her dress up and yanked her panties down, continuing his assault on her bare bottom. “You’re only sorry because you’re being spanked. Too often lately I’ve heard you making negative comments about yourself and your abilities. Things that are absolutely ridiculous, and not even close to true.” he spanked and spanked, and she thought he might never stop. Finally, he did, and tugged her panties back in place. “Get up,” he said, and when she did, he stood up, lifting her chin. “Look at me,” he demanded.
    She met his eye.
    “That’s only the beginning, little one.” he said softly. Leaning forward, he kissed her forehead. “Go to the bedroom, take off your panties, and bend over the bed.”
    When she moved, he grabbed her hand, and pulled her back. She embraced him, breathing in his cologne and resting her face against his chest. “I know you said you don’t want to hear sorries, but I am very sorry. I promise I will try harder not to let it happen again.”
    He planted another kiss on the top of her head, then swatted her bottom. “I know you will. Go on to the room, baby.” he watched her go, and shook his head.     When Allie got to the bedroom, she was already pretty shaken up. She felt like she’d ruined the proposal, and hoped that Jacob would forgive her for making him wait for her answer. She could tell he was pretty upset that she’d even consider the fact that he would propose when it wasn’t something that he wanted, and that she thought badly of herself. She hated disappointing him. She stepped out of her panties, and bent over the bed. While she waited, all she could think about was her impending spanking. She was dismayed that the night was going to end this way. Instead of getting a sexy, hot spanking like originally planned, she was being punished like a naughty little girl. She felt ashamed. Her nerves were going crazy while she waited, wondering how long he was going to leave her exposed like this until he came to finish her punishment.
    He knew that Allie was probably ready, in position over the bed, but he decided to drink a glass of water and let her think for a bit. He wanted to let her anticipation build. When he finally came into the room, her beautiful bottom came into sight. He drew in a breath.
    She was bent over the bed just as he’d asked. It was a pretty shade of pink, sporting a few hand prints from their encounter only a short while ago.
    He came to stand beside her, eyeing the strap and leather paddle still laid out on the bed from before their dinner. He picked up the strap first, tapping it on her sit spot. “I want you to always remember that you are the love of my life. Nothing will ever change that, do you understand?”
    “Yes sir,” she whispered. She gasped the first time the strap landed across the bottom of her cheeks. The strokes rained down steadily and they stung furiously. This was a totally different feel than what she’d experienced just a few hours earlier. She clutched the bedspread, moaning quietly.

    He watched her bottom take on a deeper and deeper red each time the strap kissed her already tender skin, her wriggling each time he laid the leather across her bottom.
    She was breathing in ragged breaths when he paused, and she winced when his calloused hand gave her a firm squeeze. “Oh, sir..” she moaned.
    “Yes baby girl?” he murmured, bending down so his mouth was right beside her ear.
    “It hurts,”
    He gave her another good squeeze, then a firm smack. “I’m sure it does, sweetie, but we‘re not done yet.” he reached over and picked up the paddle. “This is to remind you that you are a wonderful person, you are talented, and sweet, and beautiful. I don’t want to hear you saying negative things about yourself anymore. Understand?”
    “Yes sir,” she squeaked.
    Jacob lifted the paddle and brought it down firmly. Despite her yelps, he continued applying the paddle to her already well-reddened bottom.
    “Jacob please! I’m really sorry, I won’t do it anymore!” Allie pleaded. “No more, please!!”
    He placed his hand firmly in the small of her back and held her down. “I hope you don’t do it anymore,” he told her, picking up the pace a bit. He could tell she was getting close to her breaking point.
    Her whimpers grew higher pitched, and she wasn’t struggling anymore. After a few more well placed swats, tears started rolling down her cheeks and she buried her face in the bedspread. “I’m sorry,” she groaned between sobs.
    “Ten more, and then your spanking will be finished.”
    “Yes sir,” she braced herself and took her last ten swats like a good girl. She didn’t even realize the spanking had finished until Jacob started rubbing her back. She stayed draped over the edge of the bed until she heard his voice.
    “Stand up and go to the corner for a bit and think about why you were punished. I’ll be back in a little while,” he ordered, leaving the bedroom.
    Allie got up and went to the corner. She couldn’t help but fidget as she stood there, thinking about what just happened. Her bottom was on fire, but she felt so .. So good! How was this possible? She felt so cherished, and secure, that Jacob loved her enough to take the time to punish her for thinking badly of herself and doubting his love for her. More tears welled in her eyes knowing that she’d let him down by doing what she’d done, and more than anything she wanted him to come back and hold her.
Jake left her alone for only ten minutes, but it felt like a lifetime, even to him. He knew that alone time in the corner would give her time to let the lesson sink in and he hoped the punishment would have more effect this way. However, he hated to see her cry, and he was overwhelmed with the need to comfort her. Making his way back to the bedroom, he found her standing in the corner, sniffling, her bright red bottom on display. “Allie,” he said softly.
    She turned, her eyes swollen and her cheeks tear stained. “Yes sir?” she asked meekly.
    “Do you understand why I had to spank you?”
    Allie nodded.
    “It’s not going to happen again, is it?” he demanded.
    “No sir, I promise!” she cried. She looked up at him, trying to find her voice. “I’m sorry if I ruined the night by acting the way I did,”
    He shook his head, pulling her into his arms. “You didn’t ruin anything, baby. You made me realize how important it is for me to stay on top of everything that you’re feeling and to reel you in before it gets to this point.” he kissed the top of her head, her forehead, her temple.
    “I love you,”
    He cradled her chin, meeting her eye. “I love you. Don’t ever forget it.” he wrapped his arms around her waist, cupping her burning bottom in his hands.
    She sucked her breath in sharply. “Owww,” she whimpered.
    He picked her up, kissing her deeply.
    Wrapping her legs around his waist, she kissed back, passionate and hot.
    He laid her on the bed and made love to her again and again until they fell asleep in each others arms.